Gathering the crumbs Part 1.

Friday, 23rd January 2015.

I didn't go to Music class because i was busy getting ready for the hospital. By noon, I was admitted to ward 7C, Queen Elizabeth Hospital II, Kota Kinabalu.

Saturday, 24th January 2015.

I woke up early today... Around 6am. There's nothing much you can do around here, so most of my world was spent online... I don't feel sad, nor lonely, nor excited, not even nervous... Somehow I managed to glide through the day at ease, spending my day lazing around, sleeping and chatting with my friends online..

Many of my family, friends, and lecturers came to visit... Of that i am grateful. It made me feel less insignificant to the community around me. Meanwhile, i have been receiving warm wishes online from families and friends and even many prayers....

I know by then, I should expect more of these.. Just like how i got it in 2013. As for now, this is my only journal. To be frank, I don't have the momentum to write anything... But somehow I feel the need to document my days.

Good night.

P.M.

Two thousand fifteen.

It's 2015... And like the past years, this is the time of the year when i will have the urge to put something on my blog... Dasar pemalas.. Haha...

So yeah, a review of 2014.

What can i say... I love it, and I deeply hate it. I love it, because I got to know a bunch of crazy people to call friends. We have such great chemistry, that whenever our group are together, the atmosphere experiences such intense chemical reaction that a potato will appear in mid air, but sometimes a unicorn eating rainbow and pooping butterflies will pop out instead.

Now, I hate it, because 2014 is the year when I lost my only grandfather. We were devastated by his sudden passing. I didn't even got the chance to say a proper goodbye. However, I am sure Nek Umuk is in a much better place now... I pray to that everyday. Grandpa's passing reminds me that the world is truly not our home. Death finds us soon enough... We just have to be prepared... Just like what i am doing.

2014, I went to Medan and Lake Toba in Indonesia. I absolutely enjoyed the week i spent there, although there were certain details of the whole event are not a pleasure to be mentioned - relationship issue again. But yes I love the island... I will go back there someday I'm sure...

The Kundahal Legacy adjourned on 27th December. I can't say it's the best, but it has been a while since my last Black Out... O yeahh.. Haha.. Rice Wine and Grape Wine is a great knock-out remedy. Haha.. Last thing i remembered that night, i was arms-on-shoulder with my cousin's friends, climbing up the stairs and we collapsed like a timber on a mattress. The next morning i woke up to find out I almost drown in my own vomit. Haha... Lucky my newfound friend was such a great buddy and cleaned my mess that night. Sorry man.. Haha

Alright, alright... Reaching towards 2015, there's nothing i would want more than to be done with my studies and my hospital appointments. I never did go to the surgery i was scheduled to because it will interfere with my studies again... So, as I am writing this, I have a few days left before I will go on with the surgery.

I have a certain feeling about this life that I have never shared to anyone. I have that odd feeling, but I'm too afraid to discuss it with anyone... Even with Mervyn, my best listener... I may have to put it on another entry.

About today, 21st of January 2015... It may not be the worst day, but I don't like it. That "feeling betrayed" buff (like in The Sims.. You know... That red symbol with a knife on it) hit me just before i go to bed last night... But I'm doing my best to shrug it off. I have a more important shit to feel bad at... Speaking of which, i just lost my birth certificate, my SPM certificates, my Baptism Certificate, my other Shitificates, just because an idiotic cleaner didn't know how to differenciate between trash and EXTREMELY IMPORTANT DOCUMENT FOLDER.

Ouukay..... Better publish this before i start putting more f*cked up words. Oopss.

2014... Treat me good.

Today is 16th of February 2014. A month and a half since the year started. I didn't get to celebrate new year's eve like we used to this year. In fact i went to bed at 10pm on new year's eve.... In a motel.... With my parents..... In Kelantan.

That's okay i think... I didn't mind. What metters for me was being able to start studying again..... I was glad to be back on campus. Met many new friends who used to be my juniors, now classmates. Alas, i can only spend less than a month with them. My application to transfer to IPG Gaya Kota Kinabalu was approved sooner than expected.

On the 5th of February, i started my days in my new campus closer to home. I am glad i managed to make friends immediately... But i am yet to experience many things with my new friends.

Last year, i made a list of things i want to have by 2014. So far i have fulfilled one of them which is to buy myself a new set of desktop computer. Another one is still on the way which is to have my driver's liecence. I should be done with it within two or three months.

Right now, i'm in a bus bound for Keningau. I have a date with my doctor tommorow morning. Can't wait.

Oh yea, my hamsters gave birth to 8 little fur balls... They are so cute but i have to give some of them away later. I've lost my cat... Sad but i'm over it... The sunflower i planted out of boredom last year finally bloomed... And i went to my first real date with my new girlfriend yesterday.

So far, things are turning up for me... But after the stressful events that took place last year, i don't want to get too excited with anything. Being turned down really sucks. So... Yeah..better safe than sorry.

This year, if things go as planned, i would get myself a car, and finally go to Busan, South Korea. I've joined the college choir team, and even changed my minor to Music... I pray God will bless me in everything i do this year.

'till then... See ya.